Frustration

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I feel very frustrated tonight. I’m actually in a very good mood. I’m in a dance-around-in-my-underwear-and-sing-at-the-top-of-my-lungs kind of mood. But I can’t. The husband is out of town so that should leave me all alone to do whatever I want. But it doesn’t. But the evil mother-in-law is here.

I just went to a movie and came home in this mood. I just couldn’t face coming into the house. I went and let the horses in the barn. I called the husband and laid in the grass with the cats. I took the dog for a walk around the front yard. I stalled as long as I could because I couldn’t face coming into my own house. How messed up is that?

But it is like she sucks the energy out of the room. I don’t want to lose my energy. I like it.

I’m a very private person. Communal living is not for me. The problem is that I can’t let go and do whatever I would normally do in the privacy of my house because even if she isn’t here there is usually a chance that the deadbeat contractor may show up during the day. I just want my house back. Just the husband and me. No hangers-on.

I want to call and complain to the husband but I won’t. He knows how I feel. He wants her out of here too. So calling and complaining would just make him feel bad too.

So I guess I’ll be heading to my room now. I’m planning on watching Bend It Like Beckham which always makes me want to work out. Maybe I’ll clean the room while I’m watching and exercise. I’m feeling restless and fidgety so that might burn some of it off.