I had the weirdest thought yesterday. I was at the YMCA doing leg work. There is a wall of mirrors. I was staring into the mirror to check my form and it occured to me that I looked good. Believe me, that is not usually the thought that comes rushing to my mind when I’m staring in a mirror. In fact the last time I was doing leg work and looking in the mirror I was noting the large size of my butt.
But yesterday it was all ok. It may have been because I was wearing baggy dark sweats instead of the tighter light colored ones on the big butt day. But I thought that my upper body looked ok too.
Earlier in the week it occured to me that I needed to buy new clothes for one of the classes I’m in this weekend. I normally show sport horse in hand in khaki pants and a polo shirt. But it is cold out and I’d freeze. I went to try on new pants and picked out a bland conservative light sweater. I took the sweater in size large and extra large and the pants in size 12 and 14 to the dressing room. I ended up getting the large sweater and the size 12 pants. Yeah!!
According to the scale I’m gaining weight. I haven’t worked out enough for it all to be new muscle. But I think I’m looking better and clothes are fitting better so I’m momentarily happy.
Yesterday I wrote that I didn’t think the hypnosis thing was working for me. But today I had the strangest experience. I was hungry. My mind wanted Cheddar Cheese Ritz Chips. So I had a few. Then I laid the bag beside me on the bed where I was reading. And it sat there. I didn’t take any more. I was still hungry but I went and got the container of leftover homemade fried rice. I ate half of it. Then I quit. My mind wanted me to eat more. But the rest of me just didn’t want to.
Now you may be saying that that is how it is supposed to be. You quit eating when you are full and you choose things that are good for you. But that’s not how it works for me. I’m not an emotional eater. I eat when I am bored. Just a few days ago (pre-hypnosis) I ate a whole bag of Ritz Chips in two sittings.
The husband is still in love with his AbLounge. He is ignoring my instructions based on the instructional DVD and is just doing a straight 100 situps a day. Then he starts chiding me about doing situps. To shut him up I did 100 situps while he was watching. That worked. I think he is amazed that I do things like that without panting. I’m not in great shape but I’m in much better shape than him. He kept asking if my abs hurt. They did hurt some by the end. He swore they would hurt today but they don’t. I don’t know if that means that the AbLounge doesn’t work for me or what. Yesterday he also found out that his sister who weighed close to 400 pounds is down to 280. I think that inspired him too.
Today I did a workout based on one in the new Prevention magazine. They call it the 3-2-1 workout. You do 3 minutes of cardio of your choice, then 2 minutes of strength training, and then 1 minute of ab work with no breaks in between. Do this for 30 minutes.
I put the IPod on and danced, boxed, and did old step routines for my cardio. I did squats, lunges, and pushups for my strength moves and did 35 situps in various configurations for the abs. Wore me out and I wasn’t working that hard during the cardio. Let’s see 35 situps per rep. 5 reps done. That’s 175 situps. I believe I will smile sweetly at the husband tonight when I report that number.
Last night I made him dinner. It is hard to deal with him when he gets enthusiastic about something because he doesn’t really know what he’s talking about but he is very definate in his opinions. He has labelled foods as good or bad. Trying to discuss nutritional value of foods that he labelled bad is exhausting. So I just cooked them and told him to eat it.
I grilled two red peppers and stuffed them with sort of-fried rice made with brown rice, beans, corn, carrots, peas, and soy sauce. Then I had 1 pound of red potatoes that I grilled with olive oil and chili powder. We split this between three people. I made 2 cups of rice. I filled 4 pepper halves with it and had lots left over. I ate half of the leftovers for lunch. That’s some serious portion control and the husband still felt full. When we wanted a small snack later he had watermelon.
For inspiration now I am using the baby shower that I’m going to in two weeks. I haven’t seen my friend since my wedding when I weighed 15 pounds less. I’d like to lose 5 pounds by then. I don’t want her first thought to be “Wow, she got fat!”