I’ve always had mixed feelings about the body positivity movement.  On one hand, you shouldn’t hate your body and obviously you can look amazing at any size. On the other hand, being fat is hard on your body. On your magical third hand, I’m a healthy fat person who doesn’t like being fat so that colors everything.

I was going about my business not taking a side until a few days ago when I got a letter turning me down for life insurance.  You know what the reason was? My “build”.

It took me a second to reread that a few times to even understood what it meant.  Then the rage took over.  Yes, I’m overweight. I also am pretty muscular. That adds to my weight.

If they had cared about my health, they might have asked to see my perfectly normal blood work.   But, no. Height and weight only.

I don’t even wear plus sized clothing, for the love of chunky Aphrodite.

I have spent the last few days yelling that I am “too fat!” and swooning when asked to do anything. So far it hasn’t actually gotten me out of anything because no one agrees with me.

The life insurance company doesn’t care that my workout routine is going swimmingly.  I did a challenge group last month. I was down 4 lbs and about 4 inches. I’m happy about that.  I’m halfway through the course I’m using (Liift4 on Beach body on demand) and I really like it. I’ve made a routine of 7 am workouts on Monday and Tuesday and I’m actually getting out of bed and doing it.  I also work out on my day off on Thursday and as soon as I get home from work on Friday. (I go in too early for a 7 am workout on Friday.)

So right now I’m feeling super skinny from the inches off the waist.  I might even be feeling body positive.