I think my marriage is officially over. It is not what I wanted at all but he seems increasingly certain that the future that he envisions for himself does not include the things that are important to me – including any adopted children.

I did the thing that for me was a huge deal. I called my mom. I think she had a vague idea that things might not be 100% but she had no idea it had gone this far. She’s on her way here now for moral support. What surprised me was that she is hugely in favor of trying to continue the adoption by myself. My super Christian mom is advocating single parenthood? I guess you shouldn’t get between a woman and her first grandchild. LOL. I don’t know if that is even possible or wise at this point.

I don’t know what else to do. So far everything is as civil as can be expected. It needs to remain so because I’ve made all the financial mistakes that married women make even though at the time I knew better. But I believed that we were solid and breaking up was not going to happen to us.

I’m going to step back and just breathe for a bit and probably do a lot of crying on my mom.